I'll Think About It Tomorrow

This has never happened in the 7 years I've been writing a monthly blog. 

I was editing a finished blog when all of a sudden, a invisible, psychotic Pac Man started to erase word after word, left to right, line after line, paragraph after paragraph. I thought the delete button was jammed. It wasn't. I hit every other button on my keyboard, from Save to Alt Delete. My computer may have a malware of some kind or other. I ran to the kitchen, like there was a fire, to tell Rich that my blog was erasing all by itself. He was cutting up an onion for dinner. Rich stood there blinking at me with tears in his eyes. He was not going to be able to put out any digital MAC flames for me; time is of the essence. I went back in my office and felt like crying looking at a blank computer screen. It was gone!  

Since it's the weekend, I realized I was not going to get to the computer store before my end of the month deadline to post my blog. I thought about trying to re-write it. That only made me feel like I had dementia because I couldn't remember what I wrote 10 minutes ago. Clearly, I was in shock. 

When I feel overwhelmed, I do a few things: meditate, take a nap, eat a cookie, or do some yoga. Since it was too late in the day to nap, I did some yoga and breath work. 

There's not much you can do in the moment when your computer is crashing. Feeling like I had lost my first draft of Gone With The Wind, I walked to my yoga mat and practically collapsed into Child's Pose. Head down to the mat, body folded in half, and arms along side of my body. It wasn't a full-on yoga session, but it was yoga. INSTANTLY, I felt my entire being exhale. I was in the moment and not resisting 'What Is'. 

I was slightly impressed that I didn't turn into a total drama queen by ruining the evening because something didn't go my way. Progress! I lost a blog; it's not the end of the world. 

The Scarlet O'Hara in me knew I'd have to think about my blog (and my computer) tomorrow. Dinner was ready. Rich made my favorite vegan chili recipe. It was DELISH. 

Life happens. The End.